Title: What They Have in Common
Summary: Tosh and Martha have at least one thing in common.
Spoilers: Torchwood 2.06 and 2.07 (Reset and Dead Man Walking)
Author's note: Doesn't it suck how Martha and Tosh have had, like, two lines to say to each other? Bah.
"He should be dead."
Martha looked up sharply at Tosh who was sitting
with her legs curled under her on the couch opposite. She was looking at
the glass in her hand, still half full of red wine.
Martha considered her response for a moment. She
hadn't expected she would be having this conversation when she'd accepted
Tosh's invitation for a quick drink at her flat. Truthfully Martha had
been reacting to her own need for company after the bizarre events of the
day. It seemed she had let herself in for a lot more.
She rose from her seat and silently crossed the
room to sit by Tosh. "Yes," she said simply.
Tosh raised her head but found herself unable to
meet Martha's eyes. She dropped her gaze back to her wine glass and sighed.
"Yes," she repeated, with finality. She took a gulp (definitely not a sip)
of wine and this time she managed to look at Martha. "Do you know how I
felt after I'd said goodbye to him?"
Martha hesitated. "You were upset..." she hedged,
unsure of her answer.
"Yes," Tosh admitted. She downed the rest of the
wine and carelessly dumped the glass on the edge of the coffee table where
it teetered for a moment before falling and shattering on the polished
wooden floor. Tosh didn't seem to hear it. "I was upset," she said.
"But I was also...relieved?" She covered her face with her hands. "Does
that make me a terrible person?"
Martha scooted closer and closed her hand around
Tosh's shuddering shoulder. "No, Tosh," she said earnestly. "It doesn't."
Tosh let her hands fall from her face to reveal
tears slowly sliding down her cheeks. "But I loved him! How could I be..glad
he was dead?" Her voice had dropped to a whisper and shame dripped from
Martha was silent for a moment before replying.
When she did her voice was distant.
"It's not that you were glad exactly," she murmured.
"You were sorry he was gone. You knew you'd miss him more than anything,
but...rising up from the pain was this incredible relief. That you were
free of him. Free from the roller coaster of hope and disappointment. You
could stop thinking about him. Stop wishing for him to give you a second
glance. Stop waiting for him to be something he wasn't. And you had the
knowledge that one day the pain would fade and you could be you again."
At some point Martha's eyes had drifted over Tosh's
shoulder to stare at the sheet of stars visible from the window. She seemed
very far away.
Tosh made her jump a little when she touched her
hand. "Yes," Tosh said. "That's it, exactly. How did you know?"
Martha smiled ruefully. "I guess we've both fallen
for our share of emotionally crippled Doctors," she said.
Tosh managed to smile in return. "And where's yours
now?" she asked.
Martha got that faraway look in her eyes again as
she answered. "Still out there," she said. "Just...unreachable."
Tosh let her eyes travel down the lines of Martha's
face. "Mine too," she murmured.
Martha eyes refocused as she concentrated on the
woman beside her. Owen was unreachable. Maybe he always had been.
But Tosh had to keep living with this because Owen wasn't going away like
he was supposed to. Like a ghost, he lingered in the shadows.
Gently, Martha lifted her hand and stroked Tosh's
hair back from her face. At the same time she shifted her other hand slightly
so that she was holding Tosh's, rather than just touching it.
Tosh looked up almost shyly as Martha continued
to stroke her hair. For the second time since they'd met she allowed herself
the thought that Martha really was exceptionally beautiful.
"Tosh," Martha breathed as her hand finally came
to a rest at the base of the other woman's neck. "You deserve...so much
After that it seemed to take only the slightest
pressure on Tosh's neck before she found herself on her back with Tosh's
body covering her, being kissed with a slow-burning intensity that made
her heart race. Tosh's hands slid down her body, painting a desperate tingle
on her skin. When Tosh slipped them under her shirt Martha needed to break
the kiss for air.
"Do you want me to stop?" Tosh breathed as she transferred
her attention to the racing pulse in Martha's throat.
Martha didn't need to think. "Never," she moaned.
"Don't stop..." But there was still a niggling question in the back of
her mind. "Do you want to stop?" she asked. "I mean...Owen..."
Tosh slowed her hands as she looked down at Martha.
There was a long moment of silence in which Martha thought her heart might
"Owen," Tosh said eventually, "is dead. He may still
be wandering around...looking like Owen...sounding like Owen...but inside...he's
dead. And if I don't let him go...that'll happen to me." She looked into
Martha's eyes. "I want to be alive, Martha."
Martha nodded slowly. "So do I," she said. Something
passed between them, like a shared shiver. "I want you, Toshiko..."
Tosh claimed her lips in a needy, bruising kiss.
"You've got me," she whispered. "Just don't let go."
Doesn't it suck how Martha and Tosh have had, like, two lines to say to each other? Bah.Total suckage ! Can't believe they've been so unfair to both characters !So hooray for this fic.
It's disappointing. I've been OTP-ing this 'ship since Martha was announced for Torchwood. It's so right! And Tosh/Owen is so, so very wrong!Bah, I say. Bah.
Bah humbug ! :DI confess I've yet to actually write any Martha/Tosh (my current slash OTP is Martha/Sarah Jane) - but it will happen - I just have too many Martha/Someone fics in my head right now !
That Martha sure gets around :-)
She does in my hands - but that's 'cos everyone loves Martha Jones ! :D
I've been OTP-ing this 'ship since Martha was announced for Torchwood.You see I feel wierd (or I did at the time anyway) I started 'shipping them way back at the start of series 3 of Doctor Who...I would dig up the old fics I did at the time, but yeah...out of date.
Guh. Perfect. Perfect. This is exactly how I imagine them being together, and now I'm going to adopt this as my canon and just stick my fingers in my ears and go 'la la la can't hear you over the pretty femslash!' if next episode doesn't provide us with decent Martha/Tosh interaction. So, um, thank you for helping fuel my denial? :P
Denial is just what Dr. Jones ordered. I've been really disappointed with the Owen-centric nature of the last few episodes. I just can't stand him at all. Why won't he stay dead?Thank you for the complimentary words :-)
Yes, this certainly makes up for the lack of Martha/Tosh interaction. Great fic.
This means a lot coming from you - I loved your last fic. I loved it long time.
Beautiful fic, good Martha voice! :)Doesn't it suck how Martha and Tosh have had, like, two lines to say to each other? Bah.Absolutely! To be honest, I really thought Martha/Tosh could become canon, with Torchwood being such a fannish kind of show. But I guess that was only the shipper in me who dared to hope. *whines* ;)
According to an interview I read today Martha won't have any love interests on TW because she's "a role model" for younger Who viewers who might be traumatised by the notion that she sometimes has sex. That's better than having her with the wrong person *cough*Owen*cough* but still annoying.And thank you :-)
What interview was that?!?!
Someone posted it on the IMDB Torchwood boards. Here's the text:It was a welcome twist for Torchwood fans when Doctor Who assistant Martha Jones arrived to help save the day last week.Martha has the experience needed to assist the team, which is having trouble solving a spate of mysterious deaths. And now, as the alien investigators get close to solving the case, Martha is finally accepted into the gang.'I like the way Martha is a more mature woman than when she left the Doctor.' Says Freema Agyeman who plays her.'Shes harder,wiser and she is now she's a qualified doctor,she's more confident. She's very much accepted by the Torchwood team and they respect Martha after her travels with the Doctor.'Freema is only appearing in three episodes of Torchwood, yet she says she felt instantly at home on the show.'The Torchwood set is literally slap-bang next to the TARDIS one, so I know it well already,' she reveals.'The only difference is that because it is a much bigger cast, we have more time to socialise on Torchwood. There's always a party going on.And John Barrowman still wanders around the set in the nude alot! What amazes me is how desensitised the cast and the crew are to it now.'Although theres a more adult tone to Torchwood, Freema believes Martha has to remain purer than pure.'The producers know that Martha is a role model for younger Doctor Who fans, so it wouldn't be appropiate for her to be jumping in and out of bed with different people,' laughs Freema. 'I was quite relieved to be honest. Theres plenty of time in the future for me to be doing sex scenes, just not as Martha.' On re-reading I guess it only suggests there won't be any sex scenes with Martha. Kissing and cuteness could still be achieved.
On re-reading I guess it only suggests there won't be any sex scenes with Martha. Kissing and cuteness could still be achieved.They could, but I'm not betting money on it happening...
I know. Sigh. I know. Sniff.